Young and Restless

July 14, 2006
Toronto, Ontario, Canada


Okay, I can admit it, I'm in my late twenties. It's weird to hear and say for sure, but at least I'm coming to terms with it. I just still feel like such a kid and feel like there is so much I want to do with my life. Honestly, I'm not so bothered to be in my late twenties. I'm excited about the way I've spent the first six years of this decade and I'm looking forward to seeing what happens in the next four. I think that the late twenties are a really important part of someone's life. I think a lot of important life changes occur, and while I'm terrified about that on the one hand, I'm totally excited on the other. It's almost like in the next four years there are still a lot of independent goals I'd like to accomplish, but I think I may also want to start settling down and that is the terrifying (and sometimes exciting) part. That's okay, go ahead and call me the Gemini that I totally am!

in belize contemplating life

I'm totally restless these days. I need some changes. I need to start taking control of my future and making sure that I will be happy in my working life. In the last few weeks I have really been feeling that need strongly within myself. I crave total control over my time. Which lends itself nicely to my other overwhelming craving, for travel. I want to see the world. More and more I've come to realize that travel and serenity are probably the two things I want to accomplish most in my life and luckily I have found that one helps lead the way to the other. I often think about my life, the things I've done, the places I've been, the friendships I've made (and held onto for so many years), the relationships I've had, the successes and the mistakes. In all this thinking, the only thing I really feel I will regret on my death bed if I have not accomplished it, is seeing the world.

I know I can't go to every town and city and country on the globe, but I want to at least get to all corners of it and see as much as I possibly can. I know my style of travel will evolve over my years, but I don't ever want to stop doing it. The real catch though is that I really want to do some long trips, probably a couple that could last a year here and there. That really doesn't lend itself to settling down with some, one person any time soon and the prospect of that is a little sad too, cause not finding a true love in my life would sure make me sad on my death bed too.

our river oasis in rio dulce, guatemala

Ideally I would find someone who wants to take off with me for a couple years, of course that would be true love and all would be well, but you just never know when that person is going to appear in your life. Whether it's someone you've never met before or someone you've known for years, they will appear to you in that light when it's time. That is something that I truly believe, the catch being I'm not sure that everyone on this planet gets that lucky opportunity, so it's chancy, but so is life in general really. The good news for me right now is that I feel totally okay with the fact that I'm single. I'm not waiting and worrying about this person appearing in my life, I'm just enjoying mine.

I started my twenties on a hot spring night in Sevilla, Spain, gazing at the stars as I lay on the roof of my hostel with two fellow travelers. It was a beautiful way to start such an important decade and I swore then that travel would become an important part of my life, and especially the decade ahead. Six years later I can proudly say that it has. I have traveled most summers, at least a little, since that marked night in my life. True, much of that travel has been done in my own country, but it has been truly amazing and one of the travel goals all along. With this recent voyage through the early months of 2006, I covered a whole lot more ground and more importantly, grew a lot as a person. I absolutely love what travel does to my mind, my heart and my soul. It is such a special experience and I believe it is imperative in my continued growth in the decades to come.

It's addictive. If you haven't done it you need to do it now.
camouflaged at the ruins of tulum


On a completely different note but one of great importance, it is my beautiful baby niece's second birthday today. I talked to her on the phone for a few minutes today. Her voice makes me melt every time I hear it and her face just makes me smiling and happy. She is the most beautiful and amazing little girl and I'm so happy she is a part of my life. I look forward to knowing her and helping her through all of her personal growth and even more I can't wait to see what she is like as a young woman. It's all so exciting!

Here she is the little cutey!