CULTURE SHOCK
Toronto - home sweet home
April 30, 2006
Toronto, Ontario, Canada
Culture Shock, what an interesting concept? Interesting because it's really not a shock to come home, per se. I mean I've lived in Toronto my whole life. This is home, that will never change. I haven't forgotten how things work here or what the big city life is like. It's natural in the deepest parts of my soul and easy to feel like I'm at home, but it just doesn't feel normal to be here. After 4 months on the road and 3 of those months in a world much smaller, much warmer, much more different than mine. So, was it a shock for me to return and be back in my home town? No, but it sure has been an adjustment.
Of course it's been really great to see all my friends and family again, but it would be a stretch to say that I am totally happy to be home. When I first got off the plane it was a beautiful, warm, sunny day in T.O. and my best boy Blair was standing tall with his 6'5" authority over the crowds at Pearson International. Perfect!
That changed very quickly as the first weekend hit. The temperature dropped and the cold rain began to fall. I don't think I need to explain just how much I longed for the beaches of Costa Rica at that point. The longing, however, started the minute the shuttle pulled up the hills and around the corners on the roads out of Montezuma. I wished that I could stay for much longer and continue to learn Spanish, be with my new found friends, who I'd come to care so much about, and of course the beautiful weather. These are the big things, easily noticeable differences. These are the things you miss but you are not shocked to be without, you know where your plane is landing. I know that when I return home there will no longer be ocean views and palm trees at every turn. Instead there is a lake and much much concrete. Instead I bump into those I know in almost any area of the city and explain where I've been for the last 4 months. All things I anticipated having to do before I even returned.
So, shocked by the culture I grew up in? No, but feeling it necessary to adjust to that culture once again? Yes! It's really about the little things that I need to get used to once again. For almost a week after I returned it was still my instinct not to flush the toilet paper. To this day I still find the change I receive feels strangely small and light compared to what I'd become so used to throughout my time in Central America.
Aside from the obvious physical differences, I don't think it's totally possible to quantify the meaning of culture shock. It's really all about a personal re-adjustment that one must make back to their "normal", "routine" lifestyle. I think the "shock" or re-adjustment phase will last longer or shorter depending on how long you were away and just how different the culture you visited is, to the culture you are from. For me, on this trip, the culture was very different and I was in it for the longest continuous amount of time that I've ever been away from home. So, needless to say the re-adjustment phase has been a bit longer than I projected and a bit tougher as well.
I just started back at work a couple days ago which gave me about 10 days to catch up with friends and family. Those 10 days were certainly much needed and very much appreciated. It meant that I was able to spend a lot of time with Blair before he moved out to Banff indefinitely, which just so happened to have been this morning. In fact, I got up an hour earlier than necessary to drive him to the airport this morning and it was worth the sleepy day to see him off. I am going to miss him terribly but our friendship is as strong as gold and I know no distance, no matter how far, will ever change that. He's setting off for great things, this I know, and for that I am very proud that he is so important in my life.
Blair Blair
Me and Sammy
The ten free days before work also gave me the chance to catch up with Sammy, my girls from school and my family, most importantly my baby niece, who has now said her first Spanish words and understands that I am her tia. I think I can safely say that she is the person I missed the most. It was so hard to think about her and know how drastically she was changing, without my being there to witness the transformation. Sure enough when I got back she was bigger, even sturdier on her feet and talking up a storm. Her comprehension of languages is very good, so good that it is easy to communicate with her. I've decided to speak to her primarily in Spanish so that I can practice and she can get an ear for the language, hopefully making it easier for her to learn more later and maybe even become bilingual.
Giselle and I at her playgroup
Anyway, almost two weeks since I returned and Canadian coins still feel strange in my hands, but I'm starting to sink back into my life. I have found my apartment and am very much looking forward to moving into it in just a couple weeks. I've started working again, thankfully with a most fantastic crew of guys, and am beginning to feel my work routines coming back to me and I'm thoroughly enjoying spending time with my friends and catching up on their lives in the last four months.
Shocked I'm certainly not, but adjusting I will be, for at least a few weeks more.